I know that a first time meeting could be a little scary, at least for me. Making a good first impression is not easy to do a second time but being yourself and myself is more important than attempting to be someone or something I am not. I love to listen because that is how I learn what someone is about. If someone doesn't tell the truth then what ever I would learn would be false. There needs to be boundaries on questions. I am open to just about any question but just out of respect I think there are some things that may need to be reserved for later conversations. But a cup of coffee at Starbucks or lunch somewhere nice sounds good to me.

What I have learned from past relationships is that what is most important is who is the person that should be chosen for a mate. For many years I would try to make someone happy and then discover we are not on the same page. However, much of that is my fault for not finding out. I put my whole heart into blind love, but it was about two people and I didn't have the Lord in the center. Come to find out that some people will stretch the truth about his or her faith but if the person asking questions doesn't ask the right questions it can be a disaster. Honest communication and love for God needs to be the foundation of a relationship. There is nothing shameful in asking God for help. Unfortunately, we cannot turn the clock backwards and ask questions now that should have been asked then. I am not bitter about any relationship I have ever been in. I know I learn from mistakes and I must know a lot now.....that was a little truthful humor.

It means me being me and serving God as I understand Him along with many others that go by the Word of God instead of a distorted view from someone or others that alter a meaning to fit a lifestyle or the worlds view. For many years I simply thought I had a reading disorder....and I am being as serious as serious can be. I would talk with friends and even family and there were occasions where God's word was the subject of a conversation. But, I always seemed to be wrong. For over a decade I have struggling with God's Word, my understanding of His Word and then other peoples views. My biggest problem is I listened and trusted people. This is not a joke. I spent 4 hours last night, Bible in hand or close by and watched and listened to a pastor that literally had recorded a few different sermons and I thought my heart and head were going to explode. I had never heard of this man but for some reason, while I was watching some You tube films pertaining to prophecy and the end times, this pastor that I have never heard caught my attention. I started clicking on his different films and listened carefully to what he said. Every time he would bring up a subject matter of God's word he pointed out the overall view of SDA and it is what I had believed for years but everyone I knew kept telling me I was wrong, even when I knew in my heart it was what God was saying. I actually thought that I might not make it to Heaven but I just could not accept what people have been telling me. I am a new Seventh Day Adventist that has been a Seventh Day Adventist for years and never knew there were others out there that had the same beliefs. For the first time and for such a long time of wanting and praying for a place to fit, in a matter of a few2 hours it seems I have found home after being lost for almost 60 years. What does being and Adventist mean to me, it means knowing the truth and actually knowing I know. There is no more doubt now.

I will share this that I wrote one night because I was feeling wrong with people but right with the Lord, I hope that made sense. My goal now is to become a member of God's Church and serve His Flock in the way He wants it done.

Feed My Sheep


My Jesus Lord and Savior in Your name this day I pray
To keep me always Your humble servant in each and every way
And when I share Your Holy Word with lost sheep found this day
Fill my mouth with words to speak which are words You’ll have me say
Please keep me Lord from being prideful when I see the poor in need
No judgments or self-righteousness towards the sheep You’ll have me feed
Keep me always in Your commandments Lord and always in good deed
Please bless them Lord God and me as well as I plant Your Holy Seed
May all the sheep that are fed this day know this food all comes from You
Including this day all the Miracles and Wonders that only You can do
May I feed as many sheep as I can which I pray much more than just a few
Lord let me help them to understand they are forgiven and now brand new
For this is the Great Commission given others and myself to complete
I will show Your endless love and forgiveness to all of those that I meet
And when this day is over Lord and I am weary and with dusty feet
I’ll clean myself up and tomorrow Lord and again will feed Your Sheep

ST. JOHN 21:15.17 Three times Jesus confirms with Simon Peter the love Simon Peter has for Him in which he acknowledges the three denials and is forgiving Simon Peter but I think there is also more. Jesus first tells Simon Peter, after Simon Peter expresses his love for Jesus, Jesus tells Simon Peter to, "Feed My Lambs". The second and third time Simon Peter is asked if he Loved Jesus, and Simon Peter confirms his love for Jesus, Jesus said, "Feed MY Sheep". I know that Jesus is not actually talking about food he is telling Simon Peter to feed them the Word of God
which is the food of life. But he also does it in an order. As if saying make sure you feed the lambs, being the young, innocent and those needing special attention and then my sheep as being an individual or a one on one level then the final "Feed my Sheep" being the masses assembled as a collective group or church.

I now understand how important it is to learn from people that understand the word and have not become corrupted by the world that they live in. To learn the truth sometimes a person, like me needs to be persistent in searching. I was at a point where I was feeling that Heaven was going to be very hard to get into and also not many were going to be there. Now I know I do not have to believe what I hear nor agree with someone because he has a title and I guess I should include she as well since there are many female pastors now. Lastly, I want to remember to always be grateful for what God has done in my life and the things to come, In Jesus Name, Amen.